Sometimes in life we make choices that seem good; but we end up shooting ourselves in the foot. I made one of these choices when I decided to let my employer host my website. After around 6 weeks of trying to get my blog and site back up and running I moved my entire domain this weekend.
GoDaddy with its everpresent logins is not a part of my life anymore. Cybermesa is no longer holding my data… just my DNS at this point. If I am connected to the internet via cybermesa.com I cannot access my web stuffs. I am told its because they have not updated the name servers from internic since yesterday morning.. this is generally done every 24 hours.
I guess there is safety in this.. I don’t have to worry about them reading my blog!!
Maybe you can tell me.
When I left Oregon and moved to Santa Fe it was to bring a sense of peace and calmness ot my life. It was also to reduce attachments to “things” that were unnecessary in my life. I did a good job of this, and I arrived with clothes, cameras, computers and my cat, Albie.
I was fortunate to find a place to go to up front, and have a destination when I was driving. The arrival has been a real eye opener for me. When I got here I paid my month’s rent.. minus the cost of a ticket to see Ottmar Liebert + Luna Negra in December for my roommate. Pretty straightforward stuff. ok.. I thought that this was gonna be perfect.
However, it seems roomie has a few health issues.. so she is on morphine and oxycontin. She also smokes pot constantly and sells Rx drugs. This puts me in a strange place as I do not do these things, and cant really say I am comfortable with the thought that I could be included in any bust that came down the pike.
I guess that the fact I need to get a job and work to pay rent isn’t an issue as she seems to think I should do everything with her.. and that I need rides to all of my interviews. I have a bus pass, I know how to take the bus. Its also a great way to learn my way around.
This all came to full realization today when we had planned to visit Dixon NM.. for a festival and wine tasting. This is around 60 miles of mountainous driving each way. My roomie couldnt “not smoke” her dope first. When she asked me if I was ready to go I politely told her that I had changed my mind, that I was not comfortable driving with someone that was not in full control. It is way beyond my comfort zone.
Instead I will study my precepts today.. start preparing my fabric for my Rakusu, and sit zazen.
Intensifying job search is very important as I really need to find my own place ASAP. While I appreciate all she has done for me.. Albie and I need to breathe and be comfortable in knowing that all is safe in our home..
maybe a little casita on the east side of town.. closer to the things that are now a part of my life.