its just a thought...

I am trying to determine when I got so caught up in the progress machine that I forgot about the things that really matter in this life.
in pali.. the word is dukkah… bad karma…

I have lied, stolen, sullied my mind with intoxicants, misused sex to my own means.. I have taken the life of my own unborn child over my own…

where is atonement for this?

Is this enlightenment.. the realization that yes, I, and that poor child that wanted to be are one?

My own family questioned why.. when I became pregnant with my youngest child. that I did not choose to abort this life.

How can one faced with choices like this take the right path? Even as circumstance tells any sentient being that live is precious… it is not our to waste.

After past mistakes I chose that little life over all the complaints that I was only having this child to get more money from the welfare system. This was a human being living inside me.. it was dependent on my or it existence where no other wanted it to breathe. I do not regret this.

WE ARE NOT DISPOSABLE!

once in a while we all need to take a break… be it from work, from TV or even from our families and pets.. When we do this we generally do not go so far as to disconnect ourselves from technology however.

As a lot of you know I recently gave myself a nice tech fix with a new Samsung Omnia Windows Mobile phone.  This is a wonderful little device, however it lacked in “social networking” availability, and I do so hate having to log into Twitter.com with the little stylus thingy each time I want to check my messages (lazy phone user.. yeah, I know). I started testing twitter apps that are designed for Windows Mobile and stumbled on a real gem of a phone application, Twikini designed by Trinket Software.

Not only do I have instant access to my twitter, the application actually causes my phone to tweet like    a   bird each time I have a post from a friend.   In fact, if you look at the sidebar to your left here <—– you will    see a few posts that I actually made using Twikini!

I LOVE it!

Yeah, I know that I need a life, but Twikini is a part of it now!

Ottmar & Jon

Originally uploaded by Linda W

one day I will write a full review of the Ottmar Liebert + Luna Negra show at the Lensic in Santa Fe… the concert was spectacular! There was one bit, just after intermission that ottmar took the stage alone

he played.. I did not recognize.. and it was like becoming one with the room, the guitar, with thoughts and feelings put into the playing.

this is being awake…

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her [...]

today has been a long one, no internet to speak of, little applications on new phone not connecting.. no network apps on blackberry are connecting at all, I suspect that there is a problem again, but oh well. I am tired of dealing with this blackberry and long to be rid of it. I [...]

in my effort to streamline finances I have opted to change from Qwest DLS to Comcast. This should not only make my bills lower, it should increase speed. IT took 6 weeks for Comcast to realize that I do live right next door to another customer, therefore my address must exist.
Last saturday morning after [...]

dunk

Originally uploaded by Linda W

he is part of nature.
he is the trees, the grass, the stars.
he is the daffodils blooming on the hillside.
he is the breeze that swept my face this morning.
where ever you are Boo kitty, i miss you.

“Choices result in taste.
Taste defines a style.
Style creates a narrative.
The narrative defines the self, which is nevertheless empty”. ottmar liebert via twitter May 16. 2009